Love this. As an athlete and someone who was almost addicted to alcohol at one point I had to make adjustments not even knowing that I was saving myself. But it wasn’t till later i went through this reframe to understand things in my subconscious that were pieces of mental anguish that were always there until I got the opportunity to go through a process that took me back to face that situation and reframe it and love it gave me freedom of that.
And Lance Armstrong (love him or hate him) has often said that he didn't train *for* the Tour so much as he trained to escape his emotional scars. Endurance race training can be another form of culturally accepted masking addiction. In fact, all sports can become that. For me it was football and kickboxing. An insidious stew because not only was I able to unleash a rage that was boiling in me on others, I was actually rewarded for doing so. Hell, my college education was even taken care of for "services rendered". Essentially for raining hell-fire and pain on the opposition. Once that culturally accepted (championed?) coping mechanism ended, my world and identity shattered. It took a very long while to put the pieces back together again.
Love this. As an athlete and someone who was almost addicted to alcohol at one point I had to make adjustments not even knowing that I was saving myself. But it wasn’t till later i went through this reframe to understand things in my subconscious that were pieces of mental anguish that were always there until I got the opportunity to go through a process that took me back to face that situation and reframe it and love it gave me freedom of that.
Truly.
And Lance Armstrong (love him or hate him) has often said that he didn't train *for* the Tour so much as he trained to escape his emotional scars. Endurance race training can be another form of culturally accepted masking addiction. In fact, all sports can become that. For me it was football and kickboxing. An insidious stew because not only was I able to unleash a rage that was boiling in me on others, I was actually rewarded for doing so. Hell, my college education was even taken care of for "services rendered". Essentially for raining hell-fire and pain on the opposition. Once that culturally accepted (championed?) coping mechanism ended, my world and identity shattered. It took a very long while to put the pieces back together again.